Recovery: Day 1

Whats up world... I've decided to start a daily blog series. The reason I've named it Recovery because i just came out of a 4 year relationship & unfortunately it's officially over. My former girlfriend has moved on & I'm now in, what i call, a "recovery" period. I believe i mentioned this relationship in a few of my prior posts & it's been an emotional roller coaster. I'm actually still in love with her & even though being friends is an option, it's not a role I'm currently ready to fill. So, I'm going to take things day-by-day til I've completely healed.

I kind of knew this day would come. I was just hoping the outcome would be different. I had truly believed that this woman was going to be my wife. But what I've learned is that if you're not a good steward over what GOD has given you, GOD will take it away. There were opportunities to get it right, but because of fear, guilt, shame & a complete lack of confidence i DROPPED the ball. So, I'm experiencing the REAPING of what i SOWED. Overall, there was a lack of maturity & responsibility on my part.

I know that some people would not even be able to admit their wrongs, faults or weaknesses. But FEAR no longer dwells here. I'm willing to take the lumps to get to where i need to be. Looking back reflectively on the relationship, i now believe & know everything that happened was for our growth individually. And it was meant to catapult us to the next level or phase of our lives. Separating from someone you love is really hard to do, but doable. This is the first day on my road to a new chapter in my life.

My goal is to be the best man i can be. A better son. A better brother. A better friend.
REFRESHED.RENEWED.RESTORED.

Thanks for listening.

BooG

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